Saturday, March 29, 2014

Tough Working Life

It's been a month since i started working in the new company.
Everything is still so new to me.
And the fact that i have to start to "fly" without learning to "walk"
makes me regret my decision of resigning from J.

It was indeed a very tough decision to quit from J.
I was very happy there.
I have a "family" there who i can talk to about almost everything.
I have awesome colleagues who are in the same generation as me.
And people kept questioning me why i choose to leave since I am happy there.

The reason is simple.
"No headcount to convert you to a permanent employee"
This is the answer from my previous manager. 
So she sent me to another department and this is how i met new awesome colleagues.
I was happier to be in Purchasing Dept than Business Dept.
It took me some time to decide to start looking for new job and give up this.

On my last day there, my tears dropped as my family give me some advises.
They told me that they're sad that i have to leave but
they do want me to explore and learn more for my future.
They want to see me grow as an individual.
And my Mama Ong hugged me and cried too.
My Daddy Chong looked very sad as well.
It was a indeed a very touching moment and I feel so much love from them.

As i walked out the company,
both my parents stood at the lobby and waved goodbye.
I do not want to look back. 
It sounded so dramatic right?
Hahahaha!
I don't know about them but I really care about them from the bottom of my heart.

I believe timing is everything.
I entered the new company and I'm assigned to a project related to Aerospace.
And the manager just left this project and a new hire became the manager.
She came in one week earlier than me.
And there are a lot of things which are new to her as well.
Her expectations on me are too high.
I can hardly breath as she pushed me beyond my capabilities.
And my colleagues are too busy to guide me.
No proper learning process at all.
Will I survive in this company?
Time will tell......