For the past couple of days,
I've been thinking deeply about the course that I should enroll for when I enter the university.
The results will be out within these few days
and it's really stressful to think about what I want to be in the future.
My passion throughout the years has been in the
counseling and psychology fields.
The problem is,
I think having this career for life will get me no where.
And I consider myself as a failure now and then.
Throughout my life as a student counselor, did I help much?
I remember a pair of siblings having a big fight over a small issue.
Their mom was very upset and talked to me about it.
So, I decided to lend a hand.
I counseled them
I cried with them
And
They reconciled
I remember a pair of couple having a big fight over a third party.
I talked to one of them.
I counseled her
I cried with her
And
They reconciled
I remember a lesbian telling me her problem with her partner.
I talked to her
I was there for her
I listened to her
And
She appreciated me from the bottom of her heart
I’m proud to say that
I did help many people out there without
asking for anything in return.
Maybe a little bit of respect rather than
insulting me by
telling people how superior I think I am,
telling people how I act as if I am
Miss-Know-It-All??
I have to admit that I did succeed in some cases and
fail badly in some cases too.
I still consider myself as a failure!
Why?
How come I can help people, strangers and friends but
I fail to do so towards myself and family?
I actually fail dreadfully…
Yeah, I admit.
Ironically, I can always tell people to think this and that way but
I failed to do it myself.
Negativity clouded me most of the time.
Haha! Funny right?
So, am I a good counselor?
I admit I am NOT
I am not perfect and I will never be